Anyhow, a post ago I mention the preschool signing. I had to reluctantly sign Libby up for a five day pre school program so that I could get her foot in the door...Everywhere I called was booked. Honestly, I want to be an amazing home school mom, but I just couldn't find my feet to do it this year. I knew with our baby coming as school was starting I would feel like I was letting her down, then I would feel like I was letting him down, and then I would feel like I had completely forgotten about Maggie.
So, I talked with Kev and we agreed to send her to a three day program only to find that there were none left, only five days. Five days of my girl being away from me sent me spiraling out of emotional control. I cried about it everyday. Literally. I have very little emotional self control left at this point. I would wake up and think about it. I would think about how I would miss her face at then lunch table and how Maggie would wonder where she was. I prayed for peace, I prayed that He knew better than me and I that I would see in hind-sight that this was just what she needed...but I found little peace. The only glimmer was that my girl is soooooo stinkin' excited about going to school. Like her smile, it is infectious. I couldn't help but be just a little excited for her.
Then the other day I got the call, a three day spot opened up and the director wondered if we wanted Libby to take it. All I could think was how much my Father knows my heart. I may not understand these crazy emotions I have, but He does. He knows what is best for her and He knows the desires of this mama's heart.
|this is note that came with them from the Grandparents...they don't know they wrote it so I'm putting here so that they know she knows they are gifts from them|
He knows my heart...he knows her heart.
He loves us so much it hurts. He knows exactly
where I'm coming from.
Grace and Peace