Truthfully, sometimes I would like to forget her. She made poor choices and was extremely selfish. There are other parts of that girl/woman, that I have forgotten that I wish I hadn't. The girl that could have a conversation that didn't end up with some kind of poopy diaper talk, or the girl that could stroll with her bff around our favorite store never buying one thing but touching everything for hours.
There was a dreamer and a lover in that girl, and though the every dayness of life may have sent her into dormancy, I want her to come back. I want my girls to know her and I don't want my Love to forget her. She was real, as real as I am right now. I know that the person I have become is important, faithful wife/loving Mama, but that girl, spontaneous and free spirited....that girl is important too. Taking my little trip help me realize that.
Yesterday, seeing that I needed a bit of that spontaneity in my life, I packed the girls up for a little drive. Our adventure "just for girls" as Libby put it, resulted in a long day in the car with about an hour break at the beach for fun. It is not exactly what I planned but I love to watch them run at the beach. I would have let them play longer but the baby was telling to find a bathroom asap.
One more thing, before I wrap this up. Day light savings completely messed me up tonight. I put the girls down an hour late for naps, took them to the park at 6:00, fed them dinner at 8:00 and only just got them down for bedtime at 9:30!
I'll get my act together in the morning.
Grace and Peace